by FictionRyu » Tue Jul 03, 2012 9:55 pm
I've been telling people that I'm pissed off.
I never once thought like that. I do think Fobia is a selfish douche bag. But to kill someone in-game for an opinion? That's pathetic.
@Patch, I'm not taking time off. But I never lost sight of why I play. That's why I'm not quitting. Why I'm not giving up. I may not play that cahracter, but I will play regradless.
I've always been learning from my mistakes. The only time I actually quit was after I suffered my biggest lost to the hands of Koya. He had came to my settlement last world and obliterated my friend and I. With no reason. Kind of why I hold resentment towards Fobia for his wiping of player settlements. But that's another story for another time.
I'm not like everyone else, granted I should, but I don't make several charactrs for different specialities. IE: make a foraging alt, mingin alt, farmer alt, etc.
It's hard for me to get the curios and the LP I need in order to make those characters. I have to get one character to a sutible exploration stat just to begin that process. But then I find myself boosting that said character to be an all around one. I'm a hermit. I stay a hermit. This was/is the very first time I have ever CONSIDERED making a village idol to begin interacting with others in the world. Most of the time, between this world and last, I was fortunate enough to spawn in areass that are not grossly populated by a major faction/village. Which makes me pleased. Because I would rather do things on my own. I'm very cautious towards any other player I come into contact with in-game. Even when Fanit agreed to come help me take care of my recent problem, I was afraid that at any moment he was going to turn around and figurativly slice my head off. I'm paranoid to no extent. I'm not ashamed. I've learned that it's often good to be paranoid in this game. I read all the ICA threads, I read the Inn threads, I pay attention. Someone posts coords for a problem they need dealt with in ICA, I look up that location to make sure that's not near me.
What I explained above this line, is my 'avoid dying strategy'. it's a major, major blow to the gut when I die. Be it from some other player, or even the whim of a Fox, or Deer, or Boar, etc. I've died more times then I care to of died. I cold help it. Like I said in my edited OP, I should not have gotten out of the boat and allowed them to kill me. But as I also said, I had an adrenlaine rush. Most people have experienced that I'm sure, be it because of the game or an unrelated matter. You don't think clearly. After the rush ended, I became angered, spiteful towards Fobia and all who was not on my side because I personally think it was an unjust death. Just because I stated my opinion shouldn't mean that I am a target to be killed. What's that going to solve? He killed me because I said shit about him and 'threatend' him. It's a game, he apparantly felt it was a justifiable to kill me because I said some bad stuff.
It's "whatever" now.
I'm moving on on as many have suggested.
Scooby Doo taught us that the real monsters are humans.